标题: 此地有缘 [打印本页] 作者: xhu 时间: 2004-5-23 19:15 标题: 此地有缘 The Place of Yuan<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comfficeffice" /><o:p></o:p>
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Time is already past eleven, I am still watching the TV show. It is a good one, and it ends finally. I turned the TV off, turned on the stereo and inserted one of my favarite CD. The music started as usual. Nice and quiet, I found. I walked towards the window. It is also nice and quiet out there. The city is almost into sleep, lights on the street and the tall buildings, the stars and the moon in the sky look beautiful at night. Peaceful. I sighed... The bed looked quite messy, books, CDs and magzines lying there. I cleaned out them, then lyed my back on the bed. She came into my mind. Can not forget about her, still. So peaceful, though. Thinking of going out to have a drink. It is getting late. Forget it. Ceiling looks nice. I closed my eyes, then fell asleep.<o:p></o:p>
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The alarm woke me up at 6am. I turned on the TV. News, news, and news. Get a newspaper, then, I think. I walked towards washroom. Looked into the mirror, I don't look too bad. After cleaning and a warm shower, I ran out. Morning excercises took me a while. I turned on my notebook, started surfing the internet. Lots of email, hard to reply them all, running out of time. Closing my notebook, I got dressed. Tie, always a nice tie. I looked at me in the mirror. Looking better. 8am, I went out. Picked up a newspaper at the news stand in the corner. I went for the breakfast. Hot soy milk was good. Time to go to office now.<o:p></o:p>
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I went in the office about 9am, always a little earlier. Among my emails, I always liked those my colleagues wrote. Today Wanda, tomorrow Winnie, the next day Wendy. Paul always complements me "a King". Anyway, my email box is always full. A manager, nice shirt and tie. I always miss her... Maybe I will ask Winnie to order a Gold fish pool. It will definitely look nice in the office. Swimming like gold fishes is boring, but it is good to look at them all the time. Start to work, I realized.<o:p></o:p>
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Time about noon, I did not bring the lunch, like last time. Paul called me a while ago asking people out for lunch. I did not want to go, lots of work. I asked Wanda to order me a lunch box. Did not remember to bring the running shoes, otherwise can go out for a short run. She used to run with me together early morning. Paul came in, asked me out for lunch. Seeing me busy on doing my things, he wanted to leave. I told him I have already asked Wanda to order me a lunch box. He did not say anything, went out and closed my office door.<o:p></o:p>
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Paul is a manager of another department, 35 years old. He is a good guy. I know him a lot. Colleagues like him because he is a kind man. He is not married, sometimes I think he is the idol manager of the whole company. He is very careful on things, especially business related. Last company picnic, he took lots of pictures for everyone. I think Wanda likes him. Anyway, none of my business.<o:p></o:p>
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Business is like usual. It is always quite quiet in the office, only voices are phone rings and phone answers. One email came into my attention, Winnie said she received a call from a unsatisfied customer to resolve a despute. She used to take care of these well. It maight be a hard one. Hard one or easy ones, must let them satisfied. Management always say.<o:p></o:p>
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Long time hasn't had any information from her since she went to America. She has my contact information. Still, at least a call to home. She did not even contact her family, I guess. Went aboard like this, I really don't know what to say, two years only, husband and wife. She is not satisfied with what she has got. Anyway, she always think she is right. I know her, but never know what is in her mind. She might be busy working on her graduate degree now. Good for her, all the time. Time past nine, I finished dinner at my parent's home. Mom and dad are watching TV. I lied on bed smoking, still thinking. Driving home does not take long. Don't want to leave now. Paul called to ask me to the pub. Why don't go, dad say. Mom never minds. I picked up my jacket, and joined with Paul.<o:p></o:p>
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Night passed away, always with a tired feeling. A change would be a good choice. Company runs just fine. Looking at the job ads. On the newspaper I had in the morning, this or that, hard to find a better one than the one I have. Hang on, I think. Yesterday, Paul and I drank a lot. Colleagues like me, "King" though. Not too many people in my company know her. I did invite Paul and Wanda to my wedding, I remembered. I think they are the only ones in my company know her, my wife. My boss know her a little, we went to abusiness cocktail party together last time. Paul and Wanda were there too, but they did not see her, we left early. I guess Paul may know a little about the matter between me and her. Anyway, I like to keep it for myself. Wanda did not drink at all yesterday, she did sing Karaoke with Wendy together, if I did remember. They are good girls, twenty something. Graduates from top universities. Just don't know whether they were classmates. They are always together, in old time, they may become "twin" sisters. Paul did sing yesterday, not so well, not the first time seeing him sing. Maybe Paul like Wanda, they graduated from the same school.<o:p></o:p>
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Back to home, I still remember what happened yesterday. Paul likes Wanda. It is not my business, but I still care. Paul is a very good guy. I know Paul and Wanda for quite a long time already, since I joined the company. Wanda is a fine and pretty girl, but sometimes she talks too much. Paul, a good man. They go together. <o:p></o:p>
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沙雁作者: lkjhg 时间: 2004-5-23 21:42
You must be working too hard, it seems... because your English sounds as rhythmical as the dances by the black steet kids: cute with a touch of energy from unnamed sources.作者: xhu 时间: 2004-5-24 14:23
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Slowly, it is approach to Christmas. Company decided to have a cocktail party on the Christmas eve. Wanda is the one organizing company events well, and Winnie always helps her a lot. Winnie, she never shows off. Paul, always working on his staff. It looks busier recently since company cumputers upgraded to the higher speed ones. High-tech companies, they are always looking at speed.<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comfficeffice" /><o:p></o:p>
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I looked at my watch when I was waiting for the bus. The subway is too crowded, rush hour, busy hour, and Chrismas time. The bus came, I stepped in. It is snowing outside, looks nice and clean. Maybe it is good to build a cute snowman. The shopping center is full of people. Shopping season, gifts are on the top list. I wanted to buy something for mom and dad. Walked here and there, finally found something for them. I am rather a pretty picky person on these kind of things. While sitting on the bus, I still wanted to open the gift box, like I never bought gifts before.<o:p></o:p>
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My home still looks cold. Furnitures of warm colors and dark reddish orange colored paint on the wall look somehow cold. Heat is on, it makes me warm. After turning on the stereo, and after the soft music started to play, I went into the kitchen. The fridge looks empty, there are some vegetables and meats there, and, eggs. There are still some steamed rice in the rice cooker. Egg fried rice would be good. I start to peel the green onion, cut the sausage and scramble the eggs. Food is good. I turned off the light, took the gift I just bought, and went to my parents' home. It was the 23rd.<o:p></o:p>
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Time after eleven, I decided to stayed in mom's place. Talked to dad a lot the whole evening, then I went back to my room. I thought some after I lyed down. The room looks still the same as before, time when I grew up. It is not easy for them too, I thought. How is she now? On the other side of the earth, it is half a day away. It is also the snowing season there. It snows quite some there too, I heard. Slowly, I rested into the sleep.<o:p></o:p>
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Snow is still on, when I woke up the next morning. I still felt tired and stayed in the bed. For quite a while, I couldn't feel a thing. Then I got up. It is very nice in the morning, and I decided to go out and run. Mom urged me don't run too hard. It wasn't snow too hard, rather. I had a good run. Mom made a good rice soup, food I always like. After watched some fun shows on the TV, I started to feel better. Then we went out for lunch, mom, dad and me. We had steak. During the lunch, we did not talk very much.<o:p></o:p>
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I went back home in the late afternoon. The party starts at six. I changed my cloths, slowly. Shirt, tie, and a nice dark navy blue suit, and shoes. Party started already when I got there, no one was aware when I came in. There are champagne and food on the table. They look good. Winnie saw me. I intentionally pretend I did not see her. People are talking around. Look who's here, Wanda said to Paul immediately after she saw me. Paul turned around, walked towards me with Wanda together. I joined them. It has been a long time I haven't felt that much relaxed. We had fun the whole Christmas eve. I still feel like a King like I used to be.<o:p></o:p>
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Niddles on the clock right ticked to the twelve O'clock. The bell rings remind me the coming of another new year. At that moment, I forgot about her. People started to dance around. We are still talking. Wanda, mind to dance, I said to her. She said yes, then I grabbed her to the dance floor. Paul will be jealous, I know. When the music stops, I went out for a fresh breath, Wanda went back with Paul and Wendy. It was good, I thought. Time to go back home, I took a look at my watch. It is not that late yet, nothing much to do tomorrow. I went back. Did Winnie see us? I figured. Winnie did, maybe, she was talking to Paul, Wanda and Wendy were listening. Let them to have fun together, I figured. Then I said good bye to them, and to my colleagues, then I left the party.<o:p></o:p>
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Home does not look messy, stereo is on, but no music is played. I sitted on the sofa. Still thinking of Paul and Wanda, and Winnie. A little disappointing, I did not talk to Winnie tonight. Why not talking to her, I figured. Maybe she will not be the right one for me. She likes Paul too, anyway. It seemed Wanda is the happiest person tonight, so is Paul, I think. Winnie, one thing across my mind. What is she doing now?
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I know Winnie since I came into the company eight years ago. She works in another department, but we have had close working relation since the beginning. She is quiet and hard working. And, she is very smart. She kept a boy friend. I saw him in last company picnic. He is not bad a guy, a handsome. They broke up sometime ago. Some people in my company say he damped her and got married. She got quieter and works harder after that, and get more close to Wanda and girls in the company. She went out more often with her boy friend when she was still with him. Winnie is pretty, but not the beauty type, and, not tall enough. I think she is a better girl than Wanda.<o:p></o:p>
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I met Yuan when I was still in the university. She is from another univeristy beside mine. She has a high school classmate in my class. She visited her often, that was how we met. She is a very beautiful girl, smart sometimes too. Like some other good girls, she graduated with distinction. After about five year relationship. We got married, regularly. Not too many people came to our wedding, relatives and some friends from high school and univeristy, and Wanda and Paul. She was always a little disaoppointed about the wedding since more of my relative and friends were present, not hers. She is very good to my parents, so are my parents to her. In the past two years after our marriage, we have a very close relationship, sex too, but we did not want kids. We both looked at career, always wanted to be on the top of it. She works in a company on east side of the town. Sometimes, I think our relationship is like friendship too.
沙雁作者: 时空隧道 时间: 2004-5-24 21:04 标题: need any help ? do u want us to correct the mistakes ?作者: xhu 时间: 2004-5-26 16:54
if you find any.作者: xhu 时间: 2004-6-6 09:17
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Mirrage is an interesting thing, Wanda sometimes say, you never know what you want. Maybe, for women... I know men, they always know what they want.<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comfficeffice" /><o:p></o:p>
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Yuan is hard working, sometimes she got tired after long time work and came home late. Me, work hard too, but I don't go home late very often, unless neccessary. I like many things, music, movies, books, thinking about many things. She likes these too. Most of the time, she always looked at me doing all these things, and she started to make beautiful flowers. Living room and bedroom were always with these beautiful flowers. I realized, and I became so nice to her. We talk lots of times, never running out of topics. She is a good cook, always asking my mom this or that when we went back to my parents' place, and makes good and delicious food. I love her very much.<o:p></o:p>
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Last company cocktail party was two years ago. We went there. She especially bought a very good and expensive dress. I didn't think it was neccessary, but she insisted. She wore the pearl necklace I brought her from Hong Kong as a birthday present. She looked beautiful that night. I always remember.<o:p></o:p>
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Paul and Wanda like her. It seems everyone I know likes her very much, especially my parents. She is like the pearl in my family.<o:p></o:p>
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Business was like usual, always like usual. I stayed in the company for quite a while already. Me, Paul, Winnie and Wanda built very good working relationship, and sometimes I think we are very good friends. As good as we can get, at least. Winnie became a manager after five years of work in the company. She deserved it. I always think she deserves it. Paul is a little jealous, I know, he stayed in the company the longest among most of my colleagues. Wanda never cares. I think Paul deserves management as well. Just after one year of Winnie's promoption, the company faced resrtucturing, me and Paul were prompted after careful consideration of company President and Board of Directors. Paul was thirty four, and me, I just turned thirty.<o:p></o:p>
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Yuan prepared a very special dinner that evening. Colleagues asked me out for a party to congratulate me though, but I refused them for me and Yuan. We had a very good time. A couple of days later, Winnie sent me an email asking me to join with her to a dinner meeting with customers, I refused her too. Paul, Wanda went with her that time. I and Yuan went back to my parents' place and had a good time.<o:p></o:p>
Wanda called me the other day asking me to join with some colleagues to the pub. She intentionally telling me have to come. I told Yuan, and went to the pub. It went well that night, everyone is very happy except Wanda and Paul. I wasn't, not very much. Yuan did not ask anything after I went back home., but she knows, I can tell.
沙雁作者: easycome 时间: 2004-6-6 12:26
I am not picky, but ... "lie - lay". Maybe there are some people like me who are trying to learn daily English by reading your stories.
Expect your next one.作者: xhu 时间: 2004-6-6 15:50
In English english, the past tense of lay is lye. So past tense laying could become lying, such as "Space Odessy" and "When the dream comes", to protect Christian kind of sharp and distinct people and make certain jepody, such as American show "Jepody" or British show "Beans". And Canadian kind of Jepody show is pretty obvious. Not very hard people kind of world.作者: Davide164 时间: 2004-6-6 16:29 标题: 老太太的包脚布，无心读下去 老太太的包脚布－－又长又臭，无心读下去:d :d :d :d :d作者: easycome 时间: 2004-6-6 20:20
xhu: Please keep going. Maybe you can take Davide164's suggestion into consideration in a positive way. 作者: xhu 时间: 2004-6-10 01:58
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Yuan stayed late at work more and more. I, sometimes just read books and watch TV for the time when she is not home. She still makes flowers at home, even more often. And we go back to my parents' place more often too. <?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-comfficeffice" /><o:p></o:p>
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Time goes by, it is our wedding anniversary, the first time. I brought champange back home. She cooked a lot of good food we both like. We are just fine together. Sometimes I brought flowers back to home, and she is always the one make them look so pretty in the vase. Colleagues did not ask me out very much often. I usually stayed home with Yuan.<o:p></o:p>
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Another year went just fine. Yuan's company went into some jerpody. The economy did not go very well. Some companies were suing them for some reasons. These things happen often, especially in a difficult time. I worked harder, in turn, I became the one coming back home late often. She is not very happy, I know. She works hard too. We started to argue sometimes, about her company, her job, and her. One day evening, she came back late, saw I was making dinner, she took over the job with some guilt. The next day, I brought my lunch box to the work, like usual.<o:p></o:p>
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Yuan's company is looking at go bankcrupcy. She lost her job after many years working there. She started to look for a different job. The market is hard at that time. She is still busy around, looking for a job, reading books and magzines, and going back to her family. She got sad sometimes. It is noticeable. I always came back home after work, and she is always home, with books and TV, except when she went back to her parents. Living room and bedroom are still with flowers.<o:p></o:p>
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It takes a while for me to realize she has gone. After midnight when the soft music on the stereo is still playing, I sit on the sofa, while having a beer. The beer is good. I turned myself to the windows, beautiful stars and the moon. I felt a little sad. Dawn finally has passed, I woke up in the morning. The sad feeling is still with me. I made toast and coffee. As the same, I did some excercises, got dressed, then went to work.<o:p></o:p>
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I went with Paul, Winnie and Wanda for milk tea at noon after lunch break. We talked a lot of things. Wanda talked a lot. I, Paul and Winnie listened to her, sometimes I and Paul make jokes. Winnie cares a lot, I know. It was a good gathering.<o:p></o:p>
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Time after work, I picked up a newpaper from the new stand. I flipped over the murder headline, then business, arts and entertainment. Well, I am getting happier. I went home. First time, I forgot to turn on my stereo.<o:p></o:p>
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Night went fine. I did not realize I was thinking or imagining last night, time went fast. Still, I did excercises and cleaning, and I looked better in the mirror. Made my breakfast as usual. When I eat my breakfast, I am aware of my bloomy feeling inside of me. Well, maybe I will give Winnie a call sometimes.<o:p></o:p>
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Sometimes I still think I haven't lost Yuan, maybe she thinks she hasn't lost me too. The reason she went to America is very simple, she is not satisfied, at least I think. She wants to study more, abroad. I am the one who doesn't want big changes like quiting my job and go studying in a different country. I stayed, seeing her flying away. I couldn't do something except watching. Too bad...<o:p></o:p>
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After Yuan lost her job. She started to be moody, and we started to fight. One day, I went back to home early. She was not home. I called her mother, and she was't in their place too. I made dinner myself, not very good, but not bad to eat them myself. She went back home at about ten. I asked where she has gone, she told me she played Majohng in her aunt's palce with her relatives. I argued as usual and I asked why she did not tell me she gambles. She did not reply, and went to sleep. I was mad. It was the first time I got so mad at her. The next day, I did not bring lunch to the work, rather eat with Paul outside. One week later, she left me, to America. <o:p></o:p>
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I worked harder at my work. Paul, Winnie and Wanda work hard too. I started to receive emails from Wanda, then Winnie, asking me this or that. I did not reply them all, sometimes I just simply answer questions they asked. I like them, so is Paul. Do they ask these kind of questions to Paul too, I wondered? Soon after our hard work, my company became one of the best in the sector. My director especially invited me, Winnie and Paul to a working dinner to celebrate what we have built and contributed. The director announced there is a big project on going in eastern US, and he needs two men to do the project. He is defintely looking at me and Paul, we are the best in the company, I can tell after the working dinner. Winnie came to Wanda the other day, and asked her out for pearl tea. I wonder why she did not ask me and Paul to go with them. Anyway, these two go out very often. At the same day, we all went out for beer after work.<o:p></o:p>
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It was great that I and Paul have to go to US to do the work, Newark, New Jersey, company headquarter. I intentionally called Yuan's mother. She did not have any news from her either. Winnie and Wanda came to Paul's place, so was ready to go me. They came to send us away. We went to the the airport and went to US.<o:p></o:p>
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Before the airplane landed at Newark International airport, I was still in sleep. Paul woke me up. The airplane landed safely. We got off, then immigration, customer and luggages. Time has already past seven when we picked up the car the comany rented for us, then find the place. We finally got to the hotel. Our company have reserved us rooms, rooms in a four star hotel. One American man escorted us, Brian, a young manager from the headquarter office. We settled. Then Brian brought us for dinner. During the dinner, he delivered an introduction. Dinner wasn't that bad. The introduction went long. We mostly listened to his talk, and rarely we asked questions. It went fine. So, we are engaged.<o:p></o:p>
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Two weeks passed very fast. The project went very well. They all liked me, the headquarter people. I did not have Yuan's information. I tried more than often. I excessfully used the internet. But I still couldn't find her. But I know she is fine here. Somewhere in this place, she is just fine. We went back to Hongkong after the finish of the project. Winnie and Wanda came to pick us up. That night, we went to a best Chinese restaurent for dinner. There were't many Chinese restaurants there in Newark. Maybe in New York city, I heard there are more Chinese people there. We went to a bar that night. I, Winnie and Wanda were very happy talking that night, Paul, he did not talk very much. After all the project went fine. We sang some Karaoke together too. Winnie and Wanda both sang love songs again. I also sang some, but Paul didn't. Then we went back home.<o:p></o:p>
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Winnie drove me back to home after she send Paul and Wanda home. She stopped on the road in front of my apartment. Well, I could not see her face clear enough in the dark. It is about eleven and the sky was pretty clear. I did not say anything. She did not either. I sighed, and opened the car door. After I got off the car, I turned to her and wanted to say something to her. Then I figured I don't want to say things, it turned out to be a good-bye.<o:p></o:p>
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I did not know what Winnie thinks. She may know by now I am very interested in her. I know she is very interested in me. But I am married, and I still miss Yuan, my wife. When I opened my door to my apartment, turned on the light and my stereo. As usual, the sound of the soft music reminds me of Yuan. And the flower she made in the living room and the bedroom. I still love her, I realized. I think I am in love with Winnie already after I sitted down on the sofa. Does Winnie love me, I wondered? I still can choose not knowing about it and still living in my life of me, my good job, and my wife. But she is gone, to America, somewhere living there. Will she come back, and when? I don't know.<o:p></o:p>
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I opened my email box the coming Monday when I went to work, and intentionally checked emails Winnie sent to me. In one email, she asked me about some questions that I don't even understand, maybe it is something chubbish colleagues spread around. Another one is a question about conflicts she had with a colleague that I replied and helped her out. The last one is to ask me something that she did not understand relating to the work. I also helped her with this one. After I check out all these emails, I rested with thoughts. She liked me a lot starting from the beginning, I now understand. I liked her a lot too. I don't know when it started, I started to miss her sometimes, maybe when I first saw her. Impression of her in my mind is very very strong. I wanted to call her. Then I picked up the phone, but I can't. What about Yuan? But she is not with me anymore, she is gone. I like Winnie very much, that many years... maybe, I love her. I still deserve a new life, a new story for me to write about. And... she might be the right one. I cry to myself. I decided to ask Winnie out for dinner Friday night after work. I called her cautiously with calm. She sounds very happy that I called. I asked her out, and she said yes.<o:p></o:p>
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沙雁作者: xhu 时间: 2004-7-4 07:36
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I especially dressed very well Friday night, a nice and precious shirt and tie, "gold
fish", I reembered. I wouldn't think the same way around now, it was a mistake, I
thought and smailed. I did not wear suit because I found maybe it is better to be
casual a little. After all, we have known each other for about nine years. It has
been quite a long time, and now, now we date. I bought a dozen of roses at the
flower store downstairs, and I took the subway, towards her, my date, a very
lovely girl.
I met Winnie at the downtown center. Winnie dressed nice too, a kind of like
usual, just, she wears a new blouse. She wears a pair of black pants, that I saw
her wearing before at work. They made her looking taller. I handed her over the
roses with a kind smile, and she smiled and she did not look surprised. Then we
walked to the restraurent I have reserved two seats with. I felt kind of exciting. It
has been a long time I haven't dated women. Two years after Yuan was gone. I
don't know what Winnie feels. We just silently walked, and it seemed she did not
want to break the silence. The tacit feeling came through me. Noticeablely, I
peaked at her face when we were walking. She looks still smiling while her left
hand was playing with the roses, and, she looked so beautiful. I wanted to hold
her right hand, and just want to be in this way, until forever, TianHuanDiLao in
Chinese, I thought. But I didn't, I am not very brave in front of her. We just
walked.
The date went very well. We talked quite some, from colleagues, work and then
the family. I told her my story, story with Yuan and my family. She did not seem
suprised. I guess Wanda told her about the existance of Yuan. I know Wanda
would, she is just that kind of woman. Winnie reacted calmer than I thought. She
also told me some about her family, with some conservation. And she did mention
her past boy friend when I asked her. I had a feeling that night she is kind of
sorry for her past experience with him, and she made me feel she liked me mainly
because I said things when he damped her. I thought he is not doing a right
thing. I realized I cared about her since the beginning, since I first saw her when
the first day I started working in our company. We had very good conversation,
and we both know, at least I can feel, the future that we may go together, have a
family... And now, it is the time. Our bondage is another kind of Yuanfen, Yuanfen
that made us come together. TianHuanDiLao, I remembered. She looked so
wonderful that night.
Another night went fine. I was still struggling between Yuan and Winnie. I met
Winnie today at work. She looked kind of wired, kind of, what can I say,... kind of
more like wanting to stay away from me. Maybe it is because of Yuan, I mentioned
her too much in front of Winnie. Then she is caucious because of this. I still love
Yuan. Yuan has become someone that can not be even forget in my mind, I took it
for granted. Sometimes I think it is sinful to just forget about her. She is just that
kind of woman that deserve you to love her so much, and, fortunate enough, she
loves you back the same way you love her. That is why I could not forget the
existance of her, until now, now Winnie got into my life. My life has changed, I
thought. Hold on to my life now with Winnie, divorce Yuan, something devilish has
taken my mind. I can't, I can't, I cried. She is Yuan, she is supposed to be the one
and only one of my love. "Two hearts, two hearts beat as one. Our life has just
begun..." Lionel Richie's"Endless love" came accross my mind. I remembered when
I and Yuan hold our hands together and stepped into the church, declared to God
our love and our marriage. It is the Yuanfen that holds us together. But she has
left me, and Winnie got into my life, a new Yuanfen with Winnie can be expected. I
cannot take it anymore. I cried to God,"Oh, God, I don't know... please God, show
me the way." I fell quiet to sleep.
沙雁作者: xhu 时间: 2004-7-14 20:16 Yuan's Place
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沙雁
The end...
Two days later, Paul told me Winnie is ill and will stay home for one week. Wanda later on told me the reason she is ill, it is because of Yuan. Wanda told me Winnie went to her place that night when I and her finished the date and said good bye to each other. And Winnie told her a lot of things, such as the feelings she had with me, and the matter between her and her once and only boy friend. Poor her! I thought. One love relation can have that much impact for her. Obviously she expected from me too much, and my relation with Yuan is kind of like a mess. I did not think much and ran to her home.
She lives alone in a nice little cottage. I pressed hard on the door bell and waited. For about thirty seconds, she opened the door. She looked tired, but she still brought me a cup of tea. She told me that she has got fever, and will stay home for a week. She asked me to help her some with her job when she stays home, not very seriously. She did not say very much of things. It seemed that she got better after I came. I knew I have hurted her, and I knew she is not a girl as strong as she looks.
I am a kind of disappointed when I left her home. She is not as strong as Yuan, but she is obviously a better woman than Yuan. She is that kind of woman who can sacrifice more for me. Thoughts took me. I started to have some compassion on her, in spite of only love. I am a typical Chinese male who have the compassion and love like many married men have for women. I decided to give up Yuan and go on with my life with Winnie. I called her at night. She sounded much better. I said to her I wanna see a better, happier and brighter Winnie.
I and Winnie both know it will be the end of it. Someday, we will get married, have kids, and have our own career. In a better way, we may have better career since we are hard working and well educated people. The Yuanfen between us just can't be easily measured, not the simple nine year working relationship developing to lovers, but rather the true love, respect and our expectations for each other between me and Winnie made us together. I fell in love, formally. Again. Yuanfeng between me and Yuan is over. Then I will write my "Endless love" with this girl, this woman, Winnie. May Yuanfeng between me and Winnie be tight enough holding our hands together, like forever and ever when we spend our lives together.
The End. 作者: xhu 时间: 2004-7-14 20:16 Yuan's Place
此地有媛(原创)
沙雁
The end...
Two days later, Paul told me Winnie is ill and will stay home for one week. Wanda later on told me the reason she is ill, it is because of Yuan. Wanda told me Winnie went to her place that night when I and her finished the date and said good bye to each other. And Winnie told her a lot of things, such as the feelings she had with me, and the matter between her and her once and only boy friend. Poor her! I thought. One love relation can have that much impact for her. Obviously she expected from me too much, and my relation with Yuan is kind of like a mess. I did not think much and ran to her home.
She lives alone in a nice little cottage. I pressed hard on the door bell and waited. For about thirty seconds, she opened the door. She looked tired, but she still brought me a cup of tea. She told me that she has got fever, and will stay home for a week. She asked me to help her some with her job when she stays home, not very seriously. She did not say very much of things. It seemed that she got better after I came. I knew I have hurted her, and I knew she is not a girl as strong as she looks.
I am a kind of disappointed when I left her home. She is not as strong as Yuan, but she is obviously a better woman than Yuan. She is that kind of woman who can sacrifice more for me. Thoughts took me. I started to have some compassion on her, in spite of only love. I am a typical Chinese male who have the compassion and love like many married men have for women. I decided to give up Yuan and go on with my life with Winnie. I called her at night. She sounded much better. I said to her I wanna see a better, happier and brighter Winnie.
I and Winnie both know it will be the end of it. Someday, we will get married, have kids, and have our own career. In a better way, we may have better career since we are hard working and well educated people. The Yuanfen between us just can't be easily measured, not the simple nine year working relationship developing to lovers, but rather the true love, respect and our expectations for each other between me and Winnie made us together. I fell in love, formally. Again. Yuanfeng between me and Yuan is over. Then I will write my "Endless love" with this girl, this woman, Winnie. May Yuanfeng between me and Winnie be tight enough holding our hands together, like forever and ever when we spend our lives together.
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