xhu

此地有缘

沙雁

Yuan's Place

      Time wa already past eleven, I was still watching the TV show. It was a good one, and it ended finally. I turned the TV off, turned on the stereo and inserted one of my favourite CD. The music started as usual. Nice and quiet, I found. I walked towards the window. It is also nice and quiet out there. The city is almost into sleep; lights on the street and the tall buildings, the stars and the moon in the sky looked beautiful at night. Peaceful. I sighed... The bed looked quite messy, books, CDs and magazines lying there. I cleaned out them, and then lied my back on the bed. She came into my mind. Could not forget about her, still. So peaceful, though. Thinking of going out to have a drink. It was getting late. Forget it. Ceiling looks nice. I closed my eyes, and then fell asleep.
      
      The alarm woke me up at 6am. I turned on the TV. News, news, and news. Get a newspaper, then, I think. I  walked towards washroom. Looked into the mirror, I don't look too bad. After cleaning and a warm shower, I ran out. Morning exercises took me a while. I turned on my notebook, started surfing the Internet. Lots of email, hard to reply them all, I am running out of time. Closing my notebook, I got dressed. Tie, it is always a nice tie. I looked at me in the mirror. Looking better. 8am, I went out. Picked up a newspaper at the news stand in the corner. I went for the breakfast. Hot soymilk was good. Time to go to office now.
      
      I went in the office about 9am, always a little earlier. Among my emails, I always liked those my colleagues wrote. Today Wanda, tomorrow Winnie, the next day Wendy. Paul always complements me "a King". Anyway, my email box is always full. A manager, nice shirt and tie. I always miss her... Maybe I will ask Wanda to order a Gold fish pool. It will definitely look nice in the office. Swimming like gold fishes is boring, but it is good to look at them all the time. Start to work, I realized.
      
      Time about noon, I did not bring the lunch, like last time. Paul called me a while ago asking people out for lunch. I did not want to go, lots of work. I asked Wanda to order me a lunch box. Did not remember to bring the running shoes, otherwise can go out for a short run. She used to run with me together early morning. Paul came in, asked me out for lunch. Seeing me busy on doing my things, he wanted to leave. I told him I have already asked Wanda to order me a lunch box. He did not say anything, went out and closed my office door.
      
      Paul is a manager of another department, 35 years old. He is a good guy. I know him a lot. Colleagues like him because he is a kind man. He is not married, sometimes I think he is the idol manager of the whole company. He is very careful on things, especially business related. Last company picnic, he took lots of pictures for everyone. I think Wanda likes him. Anyway, none of my business.
      
      Business is like usual. It is always quite quiet in the office, only voices are phone rings and phone answers. One email came into my attention; Winnie said she received a call from a unsatisfied customer to resolve a dispute. She used to take care of these well. It might be a hard one. Hard one or easy ones, must let them satisfied. Management always say.
      
      Long time hasn't had any information from her since she went to America. She has my contact information. Still, at least a call to home. She did not even contact her family, I guess. Went aboard like this, I really don't know what to say, two years only, husband and wife. She is not satisfied with what she has got. Anyway, she always thinks she is right. I know her, but never know what is in her mind. She might be busy working on her graduate degree now. Good for her, all the time. Time past nine, I finished dinner at my parent's home. Mom and dad are watching TV. I lied on bed smoking, still thinking. Driving home does not take long. Don't want to leave now. Paul called to ask me to the pub. Why don't go, dad says. Mom never minds. I  picked up my jacket, and joined with Paul.

      Night passed away, always with a tired feeling. A change would be a good choice. Company runs just fine. Looking at the job ads. On the newspaper I had in the morning, this or that, hard to find a better one than the one I have. Hang on, I think. Yesterday, Paul and I drank a lot. Colleagues like me, "King" though. Not too many people in my company know her. I did invite Paul and Wanda to my wedding, I remembered. I think they are the only ones in my company know her, my wife. My boss know her a little, we went to a business cocktail party together last time. Paul and Wanda were there too, but they did not see her, we left early. I guess Paul may know a little about the matter between her and me. Anyway, I like to keep it for myself.
      
      Wanda did not drink at all yesterday, she did sing Karaoke with Wendy together, if I did remember. They are good girls, twenty something. Graduates from top universities. Just don't know whether they were classmates. They are always together, in old time, they may become "twin" sisters. Paul did sing yesterday, not so well, not the first time seeing him sing. Maybe Paul like Wanda, they graduated from the same school.
      
      Back to home, I still remember what happened yesterday. Paul likes Wanda. It is not my business, but I still care. Paul is a very good guy. I know Paul and Wanda for quite a long time already, since I joined the company. Wanda is a fine and pretty girl, but sometimes she talks too much. Paul, a good man. They go together.
      
      Slowly, it is approach to New Year. Company decided to have a cocktail party on the New Years eve. Wanda is the one organizing company events well, and Winnie always helps her a lot. Winnie, she never shows off. Paul, always working on his staff. It looks busier recently since company computers upgraded to the higher speed ones. High-tech companies,  they are always looking at speed.

to be continued...

xhu

Continued...

I looked at my watch when I was waiting for the bus. The subway is too crowded, rush hour, busy hour, and New Years time. The bus came, I stepped in. It is snowing outside, looks nice and clean. Maybe it is good to build a cute snowman. The shopping center is full of people. Shopping season, gifts are on the top list. I wanted to buy something for mom and dad. Walked here and there, finally found something for them. I am rather a pretty picky person on these kind of things. While sitting on the bus, I still wanted to open the gift box, like I never bought gifts before.
      My home still looks cold. Furniture of warm colours and dark reddish orange coloured paint on the wall look somehow cold. Heat is on, it makes me warm. After turning on the stereo, and after the soft music started to play, I went into the kitchen. The fridge looks empty; there are some vegetables and meats there, and, eggs. There is still some steamed rice in the rice cooker. Egg fried rice would be good. I start to peel the green onion, cut the sausage and scramble the eggs. Food is good. I turned off the light, took the gift I just bought, and went to my parents' home. It was the 30th.
      Time after eleven, I was still in my parents' place, and then I decided to stay. Talked to dad a lot the whole evening, then I went back to my room. I thought some after I lied down. The room looks still the same as before, time when I grew up. It is not easy for them too, I thought. How is she now? On the other side of the earth, it is half a day away. It is also the snowing season there. It snows quite some there too, I heard. Slowly, I rested into the sleep.
      Snow is still on, when I woke up the next morning. I still felt tired and stayed in the bed. For quite a while, I couldn't feel a thing. Then I got up. It is very nice in the morning, and I decided to go out and run. Mom urged me not to run too hard. It wasn't snow too hard, rather. I had a good run. Mom made a good rice soup, food I always like. After watched some fun shows on the TV, I started to feel better. Then we went out for lunch, mom, dad and me. We had steak. During the lunch, we did not talk very much.
      I went back home in the late afternoon. The party starts at six. I changed my cloths, slowly. Shirt, tie, and a nice dark navy blue suit, and shoes. Party started already when I got there, no one was aware when I came in. There are champagne and food on the table. They look good. Winnie saw me. I intentionally pretend I did not see her. People are talking around. Look who's here, Wanda said to Paul immediately after she saw me. Paul turned around, walked towards me with Wanda together. I joined them. It has been a long time I haven't felt that much relaxed. We had fun the whole New Years eve. I still feel like a King like I used to be.
      Needles on the clock right ticked to the twelve O'clock. The bell rings remind me the coming of another new year. At that moment, I forgot about her. People started to dance around. We are still talking. Wanda, mind to dance, I said to her. She said yes, and then I grabbed her to the dance floor. Paul will be jealous, I know. When the music stops, I went out for a fresh breath, Wanda went back with Paul and Wendy. It was good, I thought. Time to go back home, I took a look at my watch. It is not that late yet, nothing much to do tomorrow. I went back. Did Winnie see us? I figured. Winnie did, maybe, she was talking to Paul, Wanda and Wendy were listening. Let them to have fun together, I figured. Then I said good-bye to them, and to my colleagues, and then I left the party.
      Home does not look messy, stereo is on, but no music is played. I sited on the sofa. Still thinking of Paul and Wanda, and Winnie. A little disappointing, I did not talk to Winnie tonight. Why not talking to her, I figured. Maybe she will not be the right one for me. She likes Paul too, anyway. It seemed Wanda is the happiest person tonight, so is Paul, I think. Winnie, one thing across my mind. What is she doing now?
      I know Winnie since I came into the company eight years ago. She works in another department, but we have had close working relation since the beginning. She is quiet and hard working. And, she is very smart. She kept a boy friend. I saw him in last company picnic. He is not bad a guy, a handsome. They broke up sometime ago. Some people in the company say he damped her and got married. She got quieter and works harder after that, and gets more close to Wanda and girls in the company. She went out more often with her boy friend when she was still with him. Winnie is pretty, but not the beauty type, and, not tall enough. I think she is a better girl than Wanda.

to be continued...

鬼鬼见愁愁

我让秘书把你的东西翻译成中文，通俗易懂多啦！
＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝

Yuan's 地方 计时wa 已经通过十一, 我仍然看电视显示。它是一好一个, 并且它最后结束了。我关闭了电视, 打开立体音响和插入了一我的喜爱CD 。音乐开始和平常一样。好和安静, 我发现了。我走了往窗口。它是还好和安静那里。城市几乎是入睡眠; 光在街道和高大厦, 星和月亮在天空看美好夜。平安。我sighed... 床看了相当杂乱, 书、CDs 和杂志说谎那里。我清除了他们, 和然后说谎了我的后面在床上。她进入了我的头脑。不能忘掉她, 平静。很平安, 虽则。认为出去喝一杯。它得到晚了。忘记它。天花板看起来好。我闭上了我的眼睛, 和然后睡着了。 警报把我吵醒在6.am 。我打开电视。新闻、新闻, 和新闻。得到报纸, 然后, 我认为。我走了往洗手间。看入镜子, I don't 神色太坏。在清洗和一场温暖的阵雨, 我用尽了以后。早晨锻炼需要了我一会儿。我起动了我的笔记本, 被发动浏览互联网。许多电子邮件, 坚硬回复他们全部, 我用尽时间。关闭我的笔记本, 我换衣服。领带, 这总是一条好的领带。我看我在镜子。看更好。8.am, 我出去了。整理报纸在新闻停留演出地在角落。我向早餐求助。热的soymilk 是好的。时刻现在去办公室。 我进来在办公室大约9am, 总一少许更加早期。在我的电子邮件之中, 我总喜欢那些我的同事写了。今天Wanda, 明天Winnie, 次日Wendy 。保罗总补全我"a King" 。无论如何, 我的电子邮件箱子总是充分的。经理、精密衬衣和领带。我总想念她... 可能我将请求Wanda 定购金鱼水池。它确定地将看起来好在办公室。游泳象金鱼烦人, 但它是好一直看他们。开始工作, 我体会。 时间关于中午, 我没有带来午餐, 象上次。保罗叫我一会儿前要求人午餐。我没有想去, 许多工作。我请求Wanda 定购我午餐盒。没有记住带来跑鞋, 否则不能出去为短的奔跑。她过去常一起跑与我凌晨。保罗进来, 要求我午餐。看见我繁忙在做我的事, 他想离开。我告诉了他我已经请求Wanda 定购我午餐盒。他没有说什么, 没有出去和没有关闭我的办公室门。 保罗是其它部门, 35 年的经理年纪。他是一个好人。我认识他很多。同事喜欢他因为他是一个亲切的人。他不结婚, 我有时认为他是整体公司的神像经理。他非常小心在事, 特别是事务被关系。前顿公司野餐, 他拍了许多相片为大家。我认为Wanda 喜欢他。无论如何, 没有我的事务。 事务是象通常。它总是相当安静在办公室, 只有声音是电话圆环和电话答复。一电子邮件进入了我的注意; Winnie 认为她接到一个电话从一名不满意的顾客解决争执。她过去常照顾很好这些的。它也许是一坚硬一个。你或容易艰苦那些, 必须让他们满意了。管理总言。 久时间hasn't 有任一信息从她因为她去美国。她有我的联络信息。但是, 至少一个电话对家。她甚而没有与她的家庭联系, 我猜测。登上去象这样, I don't 真正地知道什么说, 二年唯一, 丈夫和妻子。她不满意对什么她有。无论如何, 她总认为她正确。我认识她, 但从未知道什么是在她的头脑里。她也许现在是繁忙的工作在她的硕士学位。好为她, 一直。时间通过九, 我完成了晚餐在我的parent's 家。妈妈和爸爸看电视。我说谎了在床抽烟, 仍然认为。驾驶家长期不需要。Don't 想要现在离开。保罗叫要求我对客栈。为什么don't 是, 爸爸说。妈妈从未介意。我拾起我的夹克, 和加入与保罗。 夜通过了, 总以一种疲乏的感觉。变动会是一个好选择。公司跑正义罚款。看工作ads 。在报纸我比那个我有有在早上, 这或那, 坚硬发现一更好一个。吊, 我认为。昨天, 保罗和我很多喝了。同事喜欢我, "King" 虽然。没有许多人民在我的公司中认识她。我邀请了保罗并且Wanda 对我的婚礼, 我记住了。我认为他们是唯一部分在我的公司中认识她, 我的妻子。我的上司认识她一点, 我们一起去企业鸡尾酒会上次。保罗和Wanda 那里在, 但他们左没看见她, 我们及早。我猜测保罗也许知道少许问题在她和我之间。无论如何, 我喜欢保留它为我自己。 Wanda 昨天没有喝根本, 她一起唱了Karaoke 与Wendy, 如果我记住了。他们是好女孩, 二十某事。毕业生从顶面大学。正义don't 知道是否他们是同学。他们一起是总, 在老时间, 他们也许成为"twin" 姐妹。保罗, 不那么很好, 昨天唱歌不第一次看见他唱歌。可能保罗喜欢Wanda, 他们从同样学校毕业了。 回到家, 我仍然记住什么昨天发生了。保罗喜欢Wanda 。这不是我的事务, 但是我仍然关心。保罗是一个非常好人。我认识保罗和Wanda 相当久时间已经, 因为我参加了公司。Wanda 是一个好和俏丽的女孩, 但她有时谈话太多。保罗, 一个好人。他们一起去。 慢慢地, 这是方法对新年。公司决定有一个鸡尾酒会在除夕。Wanda 是一个组织的公司事件很好, 并且Winnie 总帮助她很多。Winnie, 她从未显示。保罗, 总从事他的职员。它最近看起来更加繁忙因为公司计算机被升级到更高的速度一个。高技术公司, 他们总看速度。 继续... xhu 看法公开外形寄发一则私有消息到所有岗位由xhu 增加xhu 来您的伙计名单的xhu 发现 昨天#2, 上午08:46 xhu 登记的用户加入日期: 2002 年10月地点: 蒙特利尔岗位: 364 继续... 我看我的手表当我等公共汽车。地铁太拥挤, 高峰时间、繁忙的小时, 和新年时间。公共汽车来了, 我走进来。它下着雪外面, 看起来好和干净。可能它是好修造一个逗人喜爱的雪人。购物中心是充分的人。购物季节, 礼物是在顶面名单。我想买某事为妈妈和爸爸。走各处, 最后发现了某事为他们。我是宁可一个相当好挑剔的人在这些种类事。当坐在公共汽车, 我仍然想打开礼物盒, 如我以前从未买了礼物。我的家仍然看起来冷。温暖的颜色家具和黑暗的带红色桔子上色了油漆在墙壁神色以某种方法冷。热打开, 它使我温暖。在转动在立体音响以后, 和在轻音乐开始演奏之后, 我进入厨房。冰箱看起来空; 有一些菜和肉那里, 和, 蛋。仍然有一些蒸的米在电饭锅。蛋油煎的米会是好的。我开始剥葱, 切香肠和扰乱蛋。食物是好的。我关闭了光, 采取了我买的礼物, 和去我的parents' 家庭。这是第30 次在十一以后, 我仍然是在我的parents' 地方, 和我然后决定停留。与爸爸谈话很多整晚上, 我然后去回到我的室。我认为一些在我躺下之后。屋子看仍然同一样前面, 时候当我长大。它对他们是容易不, 我认为。她现在怎么样? 在地球的对方, 这是一半每天外。这并且是降雪的季节那里。它下雪相当一些那里, 我听见了。慢慢地, 我休息了入睡眠。雪是仍然, 当我第二天早晨醒了。我仍然感觉疲乏和停留在床。相当一会儿, I couldn't 感受事。然后我起来了。非常好早晨, 并且我决定出去和跑。妈妈敦促我太艰苦不跑。它wasn't 雪太艰苦, 宁可。我有好奔跑。妈妈总做了好米汤, 食物I 象。在观看之后一些乐趣显示在电视, 我开始感觉更好。然后我们出去了为午餐、妈妈, 爸爸和我。我们食用了牛排。在午餐期间, 我们非常没有谈话。我在家回去在下午晚期。党开始于六。我改变了我的布料, 慢慢地。衬衣、领带、和一套好的黑暗的藏青色衣服, 和鞋子。党已经开始了当我那儿到, 没人知道当我进来。有香槟和食物在桌。他们看起来好。Winnie 看见了我。我故意地假装我没看见她。人们谈话。看who's 这里, Wanda 对保罗说在她看见了我之后。保罗转过来, 一起走往我与Wanda 。我加入了他们。这是久时光I haven't 认为, 放松了。我们获得了乐趣整体除夕。我仍然感觉象国王如我过去常是。针在时钟右边滴答作响了对十二O'clock 。响铃圆环提醒我来临其它新年。在那片刻, 我忘掉了她。人们开始跳舞。我们仍然谈话。Wanda, 头脑跳舞, 我对她说。她说是, 并且我然后劫掠了她对舞池。保罗将是嫉妒的, 我知道。当音乐停止, 我出去了为新呼吸, Wanda 匹配保罗和Wendy 。它是好的, 我认为。时刻回去在家, 我看一看在我的手表。它不是那晚了, 没什么明天做。我回去。Winnie 看见了我们吗? 我计算。Winnie, 可能, 她与保罗, Wanda 谈话并且Wendy 听着。一起让他们获得乐趣, 我计算。然后我对我的同事, 和然后我左说再见对他们, 和党。家不看起来杂乱, 立体音响打开, 但音乐不被演奏。我选址了在沙发。仍然认为保罗和Wanda, 和Winnie 。一少许失望, 我与Winnie 今晚没有谈话。为什么不谈话与她, 我计算。可能她不会是正确一个为我。她喜欢保罗, 无论如何。它似乎Wanda 今晚是最愉快的人, 如此是保罗, 我认为。Winnie, 一件事横跨我的头脑。她现在做着什么? 我认识Winnie 因为我进入了公司八年前。她服务在其它部门, 但我们有紧密运作的联系从起点。她是安静和坚硬工作。并且, 她非常聪明。她保留了一个男朋友。我看见了他在前顿公司野餐。他不是坏人, 英俊。他们某时破坏前。某些人民在公司中说他阻止了她和结婚了。她得到了更加安静和艰苦工作在那以后, 和得到更多紧挨Wanda 和女孩在公司中。她经常出去了与她的男朋友当她仍然是以他。Winnie 是俏丽, 但不是秀丽类型, 和, 不高足够。我认为她是一个更好的女孩比Wanda 。 继续...

xhu

真是鬼见鬼愁!

xhu

continue...


I met Yuan when I was still in the university. She is from another univeristy beside mine. She has a high school classmate in my class. She visited her often, that was how we met. She is a very beautiful girl, smart sometimes too. Like some other good girls, she graduated with distinction. After about five year relationship. We got married, regularly. Not too many people came to our wedding, relatives and some friends from high school and university, and Wanda and Paul. She was always a little disappointed about the wedding since more of my relative and friends were present, not hers. She is very good to my parents, so are my parents to her. In the past two years after our marriage, we have a very close relationship, sex too, but we did not want kids. We both looked at career, always wanted to be on the top of it. She works in a company on east side of the town. Sometimes, I think our relationship is friendship alike too.

Marriage is an interesting thing, Wanda sometimes say, you never know what you want. Maybe, for women... I know men; they always know what they want. Yuan is hard working; sometimes she got tired after long time work and came home late. Me, work hard too, but I don't go home late very often, unless necessary. I like many things, music, movies, books, thinking about many things. She likes these too. Most of the time, she always looked at me doing all these things, and she started to make beautiful flowers. Living room and bedroom were always with these beautiful flowers. I realized, and I became so nice to her. We talk lots of times, never running out of topics. She is a good cook, always asking my mom this or that when we went back to my parents' place, and makes good and delicious food. I love her very much.

Last company cocktail party was two years ago. We went there. She especially bought a very good and expensive dress. I didn't think it was necessary, but she insisted. She wore the pearl necklace I brought her from Hong Kong as a birthday present. She looked beautiful that night. I always remember. Paul and Wanda like her. It seems everyone I know likes her very much, especially my parents. She is like the pearl in my family.

Business was like usual, always like usual. I stayed in the company for quite a while already. Me, Paul, Winnie and Wanda built very good working relationship, and sometimes I think we are very good friends. As good as we can get, at least. Winnie became a manager after five years of work in the company. She deserved it. I always think she deserves it. Paul is a little jealous, I know, he stayed in the company the longest among most of my colleagues. Wanda never cares. I think Paul deserves management as well. Just after one year of Winnie's promoption, the company faced restructuring, Paul and me were prompted after careful consideration of company President and Board of Directors. Paul was thirty-four, and me, I just turned thirty.

Yuan prepared a very special dinner that evening. Colleagues asked me out for a party to congratulate me though, but I refused them for Yuan and me. We had a very good time. A couple of days later, Winnie sent me an email asking me to join with her to a dinner meeting with customers, I refused her too. Paul, Wanda went with her that time. Yuan and I went back to my parents' place and had a good time. Wanda called me the other day asking me to join with some colleagues to the pub. She intentionally telling me has to come. I told Yuan, and went to the pub. It went well that night, everyone is very happy except Wanda and Paul. I wasn't, not very much. Yuan did not ask anything after I went back home., but she knows, I can tell.

Yuan stayed late at work more and more. I, sometimes just read books and watch TV for the time when she is not home. She still makes flowers at home, even more often. And we go back to my parents' place more often too. Time goes by, it is our wedding anniversary, the first time. I brought champagne back home. She cooked a lot of good food we both like. We are just fine together. Sometimes I brought flowers back to home, and she is always the one make them look so pretty in the vase. Colleagues did not ask me out very much often. I usually stayed home with Yuan.

Another year went just fine. Yuan's company went into some jeopardy. The economy did not go very well. Some companies were suing them for some reasons. These things happen often, especially in a difficult time. I worked harder, in turn; I became the one coming back home late often. She is not very happy, I know. She works hard too. We started to argue sometimes, about her company, her job, and her. One day evening, she came back late, saw I was making dinner; she took over the job with some guilt. The next day, I brought my lunch box to the work, like usual.

to be continued...

xhu

continued...

Yuan's company is looking at go bankruptcy. She lost her job after many years working there. She started to look for a different job. The market is hard at that time. She is still busy around, looking for a job, reading books and magazines, and going back to her family. She got sad sometimes. It is noticeable. I always came back home after work, and she is always home, with books and TV, except when she went back to her parents. Living room and bedroom are still with flowers.
      
It takes a while for me to realize she has gone. After midnight when the soft music on the stereo is still playing, I sit on the sofa, while having a beer. The beer is good. I turned myself to the windows, beautiful stars and the moon. I felt a little sad. Dawn finally has passed; I woke up in the morning. The sad feeling is still with me. I made toast and coffee. As the same, I did some exercises, got dressed, and then went to work.

I went with Paul, Winnie and Wanda for milk tea at noon after lunch break. We talked a lot of things. Wanda talked a lot. I, Paul and Winnie listened to her; sometimes Paul and I make jokes. Winnie cares a lot, I know. It was a good gathering. Time after work, I picked up a newspaper from the new stand. I flipped over the murder headline, then business, arts and entertainment. Well, I am getting happier. I went home. For the first time, I forgot to turn on my stereo.
      
Night went fine. I did not realize I was thinking or imagining last night, time went fast. Still, I did exercises and cleaning, and I looked better in the mirror. Made my breakfast as usual. When I eat my breakfast, I am aware of my bloomy feeling inside of me. Well, maybe I will give Winnie a call sometimes.
      
Sometimes I still think I haven't lost Yuan, maybe she thinks she hasn't lost me too. The reason she went to America is very simple, she is not satisfied, at least I think. She wants to study more, abroad. I am the one who doesn't want big changes like quitting my job and go studying in a different country. I stayed, seeing her flying away. I couldn't do something except watching. Too bad...
      
After Yuan lost her job. She started to be moody, and we started to fight. One day, I went back to home early. She was not home. I called her mother, and she wasn't in their place too. I made dinner myself, not very good, but not bad to eat them myself. She went back home at about ten. I asked where she has gone; she told me she played Majohng in her aunt's place with her relatives. I argued as usual and I asked why she did not tell me she gambles. She did not respond, and went to sleep. I was mad. It was the first time I got so mad at her. The next day, I did not bring lunch to the work, rather eat with Paul outside. One week later, she left me, to America.
      
I worked harder at my work. Paul, Winnie and Wanda work hard too. I started to receive emails from Wanda, then Winnie, asking me this or that. I did not reply them all; sometimes I just simply answer questions they asked. I like them, so is Paul. Do they ask these kinds of questions to Paul too, I wondered? Soon after our hard work, my company became one of the best in the sector. My director especially invited me, Winnie and Paul to a working dinner to celebrate what we have built and contributed. The director announced there is a big project on going in eastern US, and he needs two men to do the project. He is definitely looking at Paul, and me we are the best in the company, I can tell after the working dinner. Winnie came to Wanda the other day, and asked her out for pearl tea. I wonder why she did not ask me and Paul to go with them. Anyway, these two go out very often. At the same day, we all went out for beer after work.
      
It was great that Paul and I have to go to US to do the work, Newark, New Jersey, company headquarter. I intentionally called Yuan's mother. She did not have any news from her either. Winnie and Wanda came to Paul's place, so was ready to go me. They came to send us away. We went to the airport and went to US.
to be continued...

xhu

Continued...


Before the airplane landed at Newark International airport, I was still in sleep. Paul woke me up. The airplane landed safely. We got off, then immigration, customer and luggage. Time has already past seven when we picked up the car the company rented for us, and then found the place. We finally got to the hotel. Our company have reserved us rooms, rooms in a four star hotel. One American man escorted us, Brian, a young manager from the headquarter office. We settled. Then Brian brought us for dinner. During the dinner, he delivered an introduction. Dinner wasn't that bad. The introduction went long. We mostly listened to his talk, and rarely we asked questions. It went fine. So, we are engaged.
      Two weeks passed by very fast. The project went very well. They all liked me, the headquarter people. I did not have Yuan's information. I tried more than often. I excessfully used the Internet. But I still couldn't find her. But I know she is fine here. Somewhere in this place, she is just fine. Someday I will find Yuan since there are still Yuanfeng between us. We went back to Shanghai after the finish of the project. Winnie and Wanda came to pick us up. That night, we went to a best Chinese restaurant for dinner. There were't many Chinese restaurants there in Newark. Maybe in New York City, I heard there are more Chinese people there. We went to a bar that night. I, Winnie and Wanda were very happy talking that night, Paul, he did not talk very much. After all the project went fine. We sang some Karaoke together too. Winnie and Wanda both sang love songs again. I also sang some, but Paul didn't. Then we went back home.
      Winnie drove me back to home after she sends Paul and Wanda home. She stopped on the road in front of my apartment. Well, I could not see her face clear enough in the dark. It is about eleven and the sky was pretty clear. I did not say anything. She did not either. I sighed, and opened the car door. After I got off the car, I turned to her and wanted to say something to her. Then I figured I don't want to say things, it turned out to be a good-bye.
      I did not know what Winnie thinks. She may know by now I am very interested in her too. I know she is very interested in me. But I am married, and I still miss Yuan, my wife. When I opened my door to my apartment, turned on the light and my stereo. As usual, the sound of the soft music reminds me of Yuan, and the flower she made in the living room and the bedroom. I still love her, I realized. I think I am in love with Winnie already after I sited down on the sofa. Does Winnie love me, I wondered? I still can choose not knowing about it and still living in my life of me, my good job, and my wife. But she is gone, to America, somewhere living there. Will she come back, and when? I don't know.
      I opened my email box the coming Monday when I went to work, and intentionally checked emails Winnie sent to me. In one email, she asked me about some questions that I don't even understand; maybe it is something churbbish colleagues spread around. Another one is a question about conflicts she had with a colleague that I replied and helped her out. The last one is to ask me something that she did not understand relating to the work. I also helped her with this one. After I check out all these emails, I rested with thoughts. She liked me a lot starting from the beginning, I now understand. I liked her a lot too. I don't know when it started; I started to miss her sometimes, maybe when I first saw her. Impression of her in my mind is very very strong. I wanted to call her. Then I picked up the phone, but I can't. What about Yuan? But she is not with me anymore, she is gone. I like Winnie very much, that many years... maybe, I love her. I still deserve a new life, a new story for me to write about. And... she might be the right one. I cry to myself. I decided to ask Winnie out for dinner Friday night after work. I called her cautiously with calm. She sounds very happy that I called. I asked her out, and she said yes.
      I especially dressed very well Friday night, a nice and precious shirt and tie, "gold fish", I remembered. I wouldn't think the same way around now, it was a mistake, and I thought and smiled. I did not wear suit because I found maybe it is better to be casual a little. After all, we have known each other for about nine years. It has been quite a long time, and now, now we date. I bought a dozen of roses at the flower store downstairs, and I took the subway, towards her, my date, a very lovely girl.
      I met Winnie at the downtown center. Winnie dressed nice too, a kind of like usual, just, she wears a new blouse. She wears a pair of  black pants, that I saw her wearing before at work. They made her look taller. I handed her over the roses with a kind smile, and she smiled too. She did not look surprised. Then we walked towards the restaurant I have reserved two seats with. I felt kind of exciting. It has been a long time I haven't dated women. Two years after Yuan was gone. I don't know what Winnie feels. We just walked, silently, and it seemed she did not want to break the silence. The tacit feeling came through me. Noticeable enough, I peaked at her face when we were walking. She looks still smiling while her left hand was playing with the roses, and, she looked so beautiful. I wanted to hold her right hand, and just want to be in this way, until forever, TianHuanDiLao, I thought. But I didn't, I am not very brave in front of her. We just walked.
      The date went very well. We talked quite some, from colleagues, work and then the family. I told her my story, story with Yuan and my family. She did not seem surprised. I guess Wanda told her about the existence of Yuan. I know Wanda would, she is just that kind of woman. Winnie reacted calmer than I thought. She also told me some about her family, with some conservation. And she did mention her past boy friend when I asked her. I had a feeling that night she is kind of sorry for her past experience with him, and she made me feel she liked me mainly because I said things when he damped her. I thought he is not doing a right thing. I realized I cared about her since the beginning, since I first saw her when the first day I started working in our company. We had very good conversation, and we both know, at least I can feel, the future that we may go together, have a family... And now, it is the time. Our bondage is another kind of Yuanfeng, Yuanfeng that made us come together. TianHuanDiLao, I remembered. She looked so wonderful that night.
      Another night went fine. I was still struggling between Yuan and Winnie. I met Winnie today at work. She looked kind of wired, kind of, what can I say,... kind of more like wanting to stay away from me. Maybe it is because of Yuan, I mentioned her too much in front of Winnie. Then she is cautious because of this. I still love Yuan. Yuan has become someone that cannot be even forgotten in my mind, I took it for granted. Sometimes I think it is sinful to just forget about her. She is just that kind of woman that deserve you to love her so much, and, fortunate enough, she loves you back the same way you love her. That is why I could not forget her existence, until now, now Winnie got into my life. My life has changed, I thought. Hold on to my life now with Winnie, divorce Yuan, something devilish has taken my mind. I can't, I can't, I cried. She is Yuan, she is supposed to be the one and only one of my love. "Two hearts, two hearts beat as one. Our life has just begun..." Lionel Richie's "Endless love" came across my mind. I remembered when Yuan and I hold our hands together and stepped into the church, declared to God our love and our marriage. It is the Yuanfeng that holds us together. But she has left me, and Winnie got into my life, a new Yuanfeng with Winnie can be expected. I cannot take it anymore. I cried to God,"Oh, God, I don't know... please God, show me the way."  I fell quiet to sleep.
      Two days later, Paul told me Winnie is ill and will stay home for one week. Wanda later on told me the reason she is ill, it is because of Yuan. Wanda told me Winnie went to her place that night when her and I finished the date and said good-bye to each other. And Winnie told her a lot of things, such as the feelings she had with me, and the matter between her and her once and only boy friend. Poor her! I thought. One love relation can have that much impact for her. Obviously she expected from me too much, and my relation with Yuan is kind of like a mess. I did not think much and ran to her home.
      She lives alone in a nice little cottage. I pressed hard on the doorbell and waited. For about thirty seconds, she opened the door. She looked tired, but she still brought me a cup of tea. She told me that she has got fever, and will stay home for a week. She asked me to help her some with her job when she stays home, not very seriously. She did not say very much of things. It seemed that she got better after I came. I knew she was hurt by me, and I knew she is not a girl as strong as she looks.
      I am a kind of disappointed when I left her home. She is not as strong as Yuan, but she is obviously a better woman than Yuan. She is that kind of woman who can sacrifice more for me. Thoughts took me. I started to have some compassion on her, in spite of only love. I am a typical Chinese male who have the compassion and love like many married men have for women. I decided to give up Yuan and go on with my life with Winnie. I called her at night. She sounded much better. I said to her I wanna see a better, happier and brighter Winnie.
      I and Winnie both know it will be the end of it. Someday, we will get married, have kids, and have our own career. In a better way, we may have better career since we are hard working and well educated people. The Yuanfeng between us just can't be easily measured, not the simple nine-year working relationship developing to lovers. But rather it is the true love, respect and our expectations for each other. I fell in love, formally. Again. Yuanfeng between Yuan and me is over. Then I will write my "Endless love" with this girl, this woman, Winnie. May Yuanfeng between Winnie and me be tight enough holding our hands together, like forever when we spend our lives together.

proserpina

我并没有看完楼主写的全部内容，不过楼主既然以英文写作的方式来进行创作，本身已值得钦佩。不过有几个写作方面的技巧，觉得可以和楼主商讨。

看完第一个帖子的内容，感觉楼主写的东西有点灰色心情，但是很像1篇流水帐的日记。第二个帖子虽然不是非常像流水帐，但是在写作上依然缺乏描述的功底。

我以为写作，从场景，环境，以及人物外形特征和内心世界的描述能够格外让读者身临其境或者说是感同身受。作者对这种细腻的描述仍然缺少着墨，却对时间的刻画进行了过多的赘述，有种拖沓的感觉。

以上，仅仅是个人的拙见，望与楼主共勉。

圆明园

i like it.
i don't know why I like it, though.

xhu

圆明园，

谢谢你能喜欢。:cool: