why don't you just do what you like to do?
what prevent you of being cool and successful??
your current state is the mixture of what you believe and what you did, understand???
in plain english -- you are a winner because you do most of the things right in your life, and you are a loser if do most of the thing wrong. isn't it simple enough????
one beg on the street because one can't sustain hard workmanship. one live in a million dollar castle with english butler and french pussies because one earned it!