windmouse

悄悄地爱你30天（第十八天）
七月十二日

我非常难得在深夜还没有到来的时候来到这里继续我不知什么时候才会结束的苦闷和烦恼。
你刚刚打电话给我，告诉我你想到这儿来打游戏。我知道Byron的哥哥刚刚帮他把他的PlayStation和摄象机寄来；我也知道你家的电视由于型号比较老所以不能连接PS用的数据线；但我更知道你们带来的一定会是你那熟悉但并不属于我的味道，会是你们甜蜜但伤我异常的笑，也会让这个家成为在这个夏季里冻住我的冰窖。
我真的忍不住想问你一句：“Min，你知道吗？虽然怯弱的我放弃了去追求你，但是——我还是真的真的很爱你！”
我没那么伟大，虽然在Byron来以前我尽力地帮他找着哪家旅行社的机票最便宜；
我没那么伟大，虽然我可以把我的床借你们睡；
我没那么伟大，虽然我可以在你们的亲热面前表现得若无其事；
我没那么伟大，虽然有很多人骂我，骂我装情圣，骂我没骨气，骂我窝囊，骂我是傻B，甚至建议我找医生；
我真的没那么伟大啊！！！！！！！！！
求你了，别再用你们的甜蜜来增加我的伤口了……

kkkkw

大伙觉的还有必要再跟帖吗？

真没意思，写来写去就是那么两句，什么“爱你呀”，“心痛呀”“难过呀” ，一点新鲜的东西都没有。

MONTREALWINTEAL， 你到哪里去了，怎么不写点新东西出来？ I am missing you so much...  :p    :p    :p

true deceit

就是,现在的男生怎么都变得这么絮絮叨叨,一点内涵都没有.

rover

这个故事可比我的那个故事长多了，虽然我整整伤心了两年，可我却什么也没有写出来。  :p

kkkkw

MONTREALWINTER, 天天对着你唱:
"...

蒙冬, 这个星期不见你,每天"我躺在床上，想睡却辗转反侧."
蒙冬, "还没到达Montreal的时候，我决定——悄悄地爱你" 60天.
蒙冬, 我为你喝了"4瓶Vodka"
蒙冬, "你就像纯酒精，看起来平静透明如水，闻起来芬香诱人，即使点燃你也看不出燃烧的热烈。但是，敢于去品尝你的人却不会只像喝了Vodka一样的只是醉那么简单。"
蒙冬, 我为你"撞上了2个花坛，1根电线杆，3个公车亭，1个消防栓"
......"

我如果是你男朋友, 你一定高兴, 但我如果在这里当着大伙的面天天对着你唱, 大伙一定会说, 这人TMD有病, 不是吗?         

windmouse

悄悄地爱你30天（插曲三）
七月十四日

这个周末不知怎么搞的，总是很累，回来就睡觉，今天也是，在YMCA又练了好久，累得路都走不动了，不过睡觉前还是忍不住来这儿看看了。本来已经打算不写了，因为已经打算慢慢冷却自己对Min的感情了，但是今天上来看看，看看这二十天里走过的路，看看这二十天来与我并不相识的人对我的或关心，或劝解，或冷嘲热讽，或不屑一顾，还是写下了这些无关紧要的废话。
以下之言，纯属肺腑，如有雷同，欢迎对号入座！  wink  
有人骂我装情圣，哇塞，我哪敢，别说是情圣了，就算装情圣也要有两把刷子吧，我要是真有那实力，我还用在这里“这么絮絮叨叨,一点内涵都没有”吗？  
还有人说我不只是“stupid，是疯了，或者说，发病了”，真是十分的中肯啊！只是我这个病人已经很满足了，因为我知道至少有人能理解我的发病原因，亦或是曾经和我发过一样的病。不象一些动物，好比蛇——摸上去是冰凉的，因为它们的血液是变温的，只是不知这种情况在人身上出现算不算病哦。  :confused:  
哇，还有人就更夸张了，连咱的国骂都带出来了，还来了个强有力的反问“不是吗?”，把咱小时候学的五讲四美全忘了，可惜可惜，建议回国补修小学思想品德课。

其实我到这里来也没什么别的目的，就是写点东西，写点自己心里的不愉快的东西，让自己好受点。没想到引来了这么多眼球，我不是做网站，不是做show，我真不想有这么多关注，大家看了也就是看了，就当看一篇蹩脚的小说了。所以说无论大家是骂也好，是劝也好，我都要说声谢谢，因为不管是骂的劝的，至少都花了时间来看我这粗糙的文字和枯燥的故事。

最后，to "mimi2002"，问一句：“你是Min吗？”

kkkkw

Montreal, 你总算出来了，其实我只不过看了作者的开头两篇，后面的只是一瞟而过，知道不会有何新意。而且文才也就麻麻，我只是不想看见大家在这里过多浪费时间罢了。
其实我倒是十分喜欢你写的文章（不是肉麻）。 特别是有关中国文学的。很有见地，哪怕不一定完全正确。

另外，你在香港工作时是在哪里？没准我还认识你呢。哈哈。。 Be careful...

ben shung

this is a very intriguing story.  when i was at your age, i even thought of dying.  but i am still alive, and still remember everything.  then what?  should i give you some advice? no, you will be out by yourselve since you have no choice, you will remember everything since that was part of you, you will later find she was correct since you can find somebody better and she liked you but wanted you to find what you deserve.  Yes, they were all correct.

20 years later, i brought my wife and kids there.  my friends invited all of them there, perhaps my friends did not know what happened.  only one (of courese, the least pretty one I had) did not turn up.  i could hardly recognize them: are they ones i dreamed so much about all these years? they were so old, and had nothing I could admire.  my wife asked me how possibly I was that desperate of them.  i said "i do not know, i just wanted them so much". indeed i had your experience, maybe even more... only my wife said "i can see from their eyes, they want to marry you now.  i should tell them you still miss them.  i am sure they will not be able to fall into sleep tonight."

now i am proud of myself, my wife and my kids. i am very thankful to those who declined me.  without their kind refusal, i would have to live with them for the rest of my life: my life would be completely different.  they just used a slightly brutal way to tell me i should aim at something better.

this is life: be serious to your wife, and for everything else, love is just a game.  you do not want to lose in a game since you somehow want to continue to play.  but there is time up.  pay for your time there and move on.  did you love somebody in schools or colleges? come on, you have survived those already.

i hope your 30 day trial period is over, and everything is over for you.  you have more important things to pursue.  local foreigners do not have the potential you have: they are here for years, but they can not manage to find a female partner from their own communities.  but you, you come here, you have not started yet, you will do something greater, much greater than they can achieve.  20 years later, you should try to find her, and give her an appointment.  and try to find me, and tell me your story thenafter.

bumpkin

ben shung, I am interested in your story. But, what are you talking about?   :confused:  In your second paragraph, Who is "them"? Where is "there"?
......

blackcoffe

Ben Shung: You are really a good man. I like your style.