姥姥

你到底有几个好哥哥,为何每个哥哥都这么伤心
你到底有几个傻哥哥,为何每个哥哥都这么神经

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sahara: 我很开心阿， 因为你的话！！！！      wink    :p        :rolleyes:

onlygege

小楼昨夜又风雨，阴霾的天色下，人庸懒欲睡。

没想过未来，也没想过专有，从最初就知道彼此的定位，不想吓跑谁。

也许心里留恋的根本就是生命的一个幻象，当终于能够解脱，不知是否能看清这人是谁。

joylife

Onlygege,

I am moved, a lot. I have not read poems for a long time or have not pay attention to any subtle feeling for a longtime. You writing moves me today. Of all the chinese pop songs, one of my favorate is Lin yi lian's "zhi shao hai you ni", I wish I will meet a girl like you who  appreciate your lover so much.

onlygege

Joylife,

Thanks for ur appreciation. Maybe u are moved by the feelings deep in ur heart. I, feeling sth blocking in the chest, have to speak it out to survive.

But, pls never think of experiencing such feelings. It'll kill u.

When u sit in a coffee bar for a long, lonely afternoon, watching to the street, just because u know she will appear an hour later,just wanna see her for one glimpse, u will know how love can suffer.

When u answer her phone late in the night, talking nothing serious just because u don't want her to know how u love her and just don't want her feel the pressure of ur love, u will wish u never knew her.

To make ur life easier, go to get the one who loves u much more than u love her.

But to feel urself alive as a vivid individual, go to love whoever u love.

Contradictory? Sure. Maybe it is the truth of the life.

I know I am not the suitable one to give any advice to anybody on love affair. See, what a life I am living, all in mess!

I just share what I learnt with u, my firend.  

joylife

Onlygege,

Thank you for your advice. I am mature enough not to be in a mess. But that is why your writing moves me. We are living on the ground but sometimes I want to live in  a uplifted lou ge, no control, no cover,  just expose yourself, expose your feeling, your desire, your weaknes, your weirdness, your everything. But I can't. I am very responsible person and feel the weight first before I move. I go to a jazz bar alone a lot and I enjoy the sentimental music which goes deep into your heart. maybe I should invite you to join me next time.

onlygege

Joylife,

Thanks for ur invitation.

U are absolutely right. I am in a true mess. But I'll get out of it finally.

It's me not u who needs advice.

How I wish I could regain the peace that I have had before.  frown

joylife

Onlygege,

Sorry I used word the mess. I just pick up the word from your last message. I don't think you are in that sitation. But if you think you are, it is not as bad as you expressed. It is just part of life. One day you will miss the mess. Man and woman, 7 feelings and 6 desires, no one can satisfy all of them or at least in the same time, that is why we have up and downs.
By happy, the secret of happiness is even-mindedness through all the storms of life. BTW, I will drop you a message next time I go to a jazz.

onlygege

Joylife,

Never mind ur wording.I have been in a true mess these days. But I know I won't be in that mess all my life.

I still miss him but the missing is becoming missing sth in the past. I am not waiting for any further story. Gege dies in my heart. That is why I will miss him for ever. If I keep strugling to be with him both of us will damage the perfect memory.

Just let it go and let it be. I really appreciate ur advice, which give me so much warm in the cool night of the fall.

Summer is gone. So does my heart.  :cool:

onlygege

坐在秋千架上，夜空蓝得如此深沉，美丽过宝石，又似丝绒天幕。星格外地亮，大片的白云缓缓飘动，天是如此高远。在公园的攀登架上倒挂金钩，看见颠倒的世界。

哥哥，仍然想你，但想念成为怀念，因为心底里那个哥哥是属于2002年夏季的，那个心疼我的人，那个让我开心的人，那个曾经借给我一个温暖怀抱的人。我还是没学会抱怨，哀大莫过于心死。

感谢你教会我看到生活有那么多意外和可能，感谢你让我惊讶地认识自己，更感谢你教会我迅速地遗忘，虽然我学艺不精，总是深深想念，但现在渐渐知道人可以怎样无情。无情好，因为多情总被无情恼。

从此仍然会不可避免地相遇，但彼此如路人而已，我心中的哥哥还在，但不是你。
  :cool: