Matrix

TianTian, try to "shu(4) li(4) zheng(4) que(4) de ren(2) sheng(1) guan(1) and ren(2) si(3) guan(1)",that's what I learned this time, and ren(2) si(3) guan(1) is very important for me to recover.
Am I right?  :cool:

TIAN TIAN

Martrix:
Thanks for your advice. I saw my mother in my dream yesterday night.I hope I can accompany her everyday.

Matrix

What a coincidence! Believe me or not, I dreamed about my father in our former apartment last nite
and he's on the balcony serving the flowers and birds----he always tried to be a handyman but frankly we all didn't think so, hehe...And then my elder brother and me said hello to him, he took a look at us and faded away after several seconds. Then I asked my brother why we could still saw father though he had already passed away. It's a simple way to understand "ren(2) si(3) guan(1)"----When I tidied up father's tools box, it seemed to me that yesterday this moment my father was still holding the scissors to trim those flowers but now he had changed into bone ashes staying in ge(2) ming(4) lie(4) shi(4) gong(1) mu(4)----he left suddenly not even leaving a single word to us......I am not that vulneralbe that can't afford the old passing away, but it's supposed to be like all the children surrounding him and he finished the last words to us and left peacefully...I don't even have a chance to take care of him but run away here in Canada. As a traditional Chinese father, he sometimes kept the distance between father and son, but I knew he loves me very very much and is always proud of me even I am still nothing here...I have ever asked a stupid question to my brother:" It would be great if I could still communicate to father even if he had passed away, wouldn't it?"
Sincerely wish all the fathers and mothers healthy and long-lived!!!         

TIAN TIAN

To Matrix :
Thanks for your reply.
Do you believe in God? Do you know where we are going after death?Can you tell me something about ur ideas? anyhow ,all the best to you.

Matrix

Tiantian, I have no religions up to now but personally I prefer materialism than idealism. You know, I had been expecting the miracle but when I watched my father's coffin being pulled into the fire and burnt for almost 2 hours, from that moment, I realized there will be no miracle at all. And fortunately or unfortunately, death is part of our life and we all will follow this way without exceptions. I used to be a naughty "boy" in the family but since this sudden event I felt myself getting older and older----in another word, mature.
As a matter of fact, religions really can make you feel better somehow, But when I saw the burning fire I definitely believe that God can't help.
Life is really vulnerable and I am really sorry for the four Canadian soldiers who sacrificed not in a battle but due to friendly fire! They were just doing the exercise in the morning and suddenly being bombed to die.
Feeling the earthquake this morning makes me thinking----Life is really vulnerable! We have to experience lots of life-and-death moments through out our whole lives, there is really no need to think about death too much because who knows what's gonna happen, my friend, you just relax and enjoy your everyday----This is what life is!  :cool:

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TIAN TIAN

Matrix :Reading your article, my eyes glistened with tears as i struggled to control my emotions.I has changed a lot since my dear mother died. I cannot really feel happy and easy,because I miss my mother painfully.(soory, my English is limitted, I wish I can learn from you more, I have to handle my assignment:1000-word composition first in English)Thanks for your kindness.           frown

Matrix

Tiantian, I was flattered, where where! See how poor my English is when I was flattered, haha, try to ask Wang8 for that.
Anyway, really hope both of us can cheer up as soon as possible. Try to be with and talk to your friends around and don't leave yourself alone recently if you still feel painful. Email me if you wanna share your feeling with me.     
newlinx, what are you gonna do down there???   :confused: