hi, sweetheart,
I think you are a new comer, and you must be a happy girl or woman in China. Tell you, this is a desperate city, and it is the most desperate city in north america since French was loser in the war. You have this feeling, because the enviroment dilute you. you are just a mirror, the sadness on you is the sadness of others. So don't worry. I had this feeling often. I have been here for three years. If you want to keep your heart clean and happy. just keep in touch with few people, and don't look at stranger's eyes, stay alone as much as you can. Do things you enjoy. then you will be happy. Your life is your life, other people's pathentic lives are their lives. You don't have responsiblity to be influenced by them. |