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Post by xhu;2758546
現實吃人﹐真吃﹗國際通行。魯迅那個﹐小兒科啊﹗撒把對舊道德的厭氣﹐誰不會啊﹗聽說共產主義者吃物質﹗

不能比點一下更深刻了﹐都在吃﹗再寫深刻點我怕天主教放火把我給燒了。還在吃錢﹐吃物質去﹐吃自己去﹐TNND。

xhu

My works, at certain extends, mean add me does not make it more, less me does not make it less. I tried to let it be. New works though.

:cool::cool:

xhu

Check my short story, "Bypass" by Sha Yan. I did some rewriting, It deals with obsession and hope. Have fun reading.
Bypass
I had a dream. The dream was neither enchanting, nor sad, nor desperate. I saw the flesh, and blood, in various places, flesh and blood that was white and red, skull, brain. I was then half-awake, half-sleeping, I saw the Heaven. White doves flapped their wings, silence. Then angels sang Halleluiah. And the sky opened, it was pure and white, specifically, then I saw the immediate light, so shiny that is like the sunshine but purer. Angels sang Halleluiah again, then I became awake.
I wore my pajama, and made myself a cup of coffee. Then I picked todays newspaper from the front door. Sitting down, I sipped coffee, and started to read, the murder headline, then the Financial, and the Entertainment. I felt worried, for the business around the city. I turned into the kitchen, brought Whiskey, poured a glass, added some of it to my coffee from the glass. Then I drank the whole shot. I felt a little high. Then I had another shot.
Outside of my door, rhododendron was blooming in my front garden, scarlet. The path to front door was wet, it was raining for the morning. The concrete of the wall of my house is light gray, it stood still rigidly in the rain.
I picked a Playboy magazine after a little thought and bought a pack of Rothman King size in the Tabagie a couple blocks away from my home. Then I went into Provigo opposite the shop. I bought some groceries. It was still morning, about 10AM, when I put the groceries and the Playboy magazine in my car parking in the parking lot. I went into the bar underground in the basement of Tabagie, and I had a beer and thought, What the heck, God will forgive me. It was not the first time I did that.
It wasnt too bad, the TV program this morning. The View, I watched it a little, I often watch the View, they made you laugh. At noon, it was the news, I turned the TV off and had a sandwich for lunch, alone, by myself.
I was married a couple of years ago, to my wife from China. I was also from China about sixteen years ago to this place, Montreal, Canada. I studied and worked for a while, then I married her when I was working in US. I quitted my job in the US and came back to Canada to sponsor her here. But when she came here, and found I didnt have a job and steady income, she left me and went for her study here in Canada. She stayed.
I was bored in the afternoon. I went on Internet to the chat room. Sometimes I really liked chat rooms, but also sometimes I found it made little sense. I told my dream this morning to people in the chat room, you dont know what they said. They said, get a job, indulge yourself."
I had another glass of liquor, and started to read the Playboy magazine. I love women. Here they were, naked in front of me, on the magazine. I thought, there is no end of life; I am thirty six, separated, there was no reason I cant read the magazine. Time passed three, I had a nap, with the Playboy Magazine laying beside me on my bed.
That was my day, seven days a week, 24 hours a day. I was just too tired. Too tired of everything, anything, marriage, love, religion and life. About five O’clock, I woke up. A sales man called me and offered me a vacation to Disney World package for ninety nine dollars, I said no. I urgently need to keep every cent of the welfare money I receive, when I receive it. Anyway, I went to Disney World once already.
Are there miracles in life? I expect it, I need to be saved. Bypassing the day like this did not make much sense, boring and dull, drought, and liquor. Ive had this liquor problem for quite a while. I remembered the dream I had this morning. Did God come to save my soul? But still it was, my life went on like this for years. I had no hope. Hope., hope is the only medicine, I expected, God, how could it be? My life.
I am a Christian, baptized thirteen years ago in a local Montreal church, when I was still in the university. My school days wasnt too bad, life was hopeful by the time. I tried to become good in my church, attending Bible study groups and Sunday services. I used to dress always in suit to attend the Sunday services, never in jeans. And I never missed Sunday service when I was young. I think God loved me by that time, even though I smoked a lot, nearly a pack of cigarettes a day. I was passionate for church activities, and I remembered the time when I was young and happy.
Dinner time came, mom cooked for us. We were having chicken, beef and broccoli, and tofu soup. I poured myself a glass of red wine, also got two glasses for my mom and dad. Red, the wine in the glasses, made me think about the dream this morning, flesh and blood in my dream. I sipped. Dinner went well, dishes were plain, just so plain. Mom added little salt for the dishes. I tried to talk to my mom during the dinner, but I couldnt. No, I didnt want to talk. So we just ate, plainly.
I am obsessed with my life now, women, men, people, kids and things around me. I am obsessed with the subways stops. I live very far away, in the suburb and often I come to downtown and have to take the subway. I often keeps on counting the subways stops before I reach my final destination, prominently, five stops more, four, three. Often I rested in thoughts in the running subway, and when a couple of stops passed, I feel glad. I wouldn’t mind if I lived close to downtown and take a couple of subways stops.
I am a pretty fearless man, and many times I think I only sometimes have fears for God. And I think His mightiness will save me and bring me to Heaven when I die, I don’t know it is so quick and it is happening now. I have metamorphosis and I am ill. I do pray.
Alcohol kills some of my time, times to buy it at SAQ and times to drink it and have a little highness. Dreadful, my life is now. The only thing I liked in my life now is that I read quite often. Fiction and poetry are my true love. I started to write when I was thirty three, with whole many years of reading experiences and writing workshop from the church I attended in California. I especially attended the writing workshop. That taught me a lot.
At eight, I sat down in front of my desk and my computer. I started to write, my experience and my story, poetry. I suddenly felt that I am hopeful, I could become a good writer. I looked at my desk lamp, the light is warm and shiny. I thought about it. And I turned my thoughts into words, sentences, urgently. Yes, I could write.
Night came fast, I was still sitting in front of my desk, writing. Now it was the time for bed. Should I say prayer to God before I go to bed and ask Him for forgiveness. I thought about the dream again, maybe God was really coming to save my soul. Yes, save my soul, God, please, I will be good. I thought God could create miracles.
The next morning, I passed the cemetery near Henri Bourassa, I especially went in to see the people buried there. May they rest in Heaven, I thought. I lighted a cigarette, and sat on the chair in the cemetery, and rested in thoughts.

xhu

Post by xhu;2738506
This Christmas, I would like to share this prose fiction with you, my "Champagne, marinated, ice cream, coffee and tea". The story is featured in my collection "Yuan's Place" by Sha Yan. Wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a happy New Year.

Champagne, marinated, ice cream, coffee and tea

Sha Yan

The racetrack is the hottest spot in the summer. Racers are all engaged to start. Audiences are getting popcorn, ice cream and hot dogs. It is hot and sweaty. T-shirts sales people are going here and there to sell race car T-shirts. Personnel of the F-1 formula race are working with their fullest potential.
Summer is the best season of this place. Sunshine, trees, flowers, campground, and swimming pools are people's most love. Sweet smiles on girls face and steady please and thank you from guys' mouth in every shop you visit make sure you are still in heaven. Grilled chicken, marinated, fries and salad, dish everyone wants to order in all seasons comes into everyone's home, a gas powered BBQ oven in one's back yard is definitely an asset. When time past 5pm, lines of traffic on the high way facing the coming down sun in the slightly reddish and golden shiny sky move slowly and quietly. TVs just finish American soap opera and get ready to let everyone know what happen in the world and the city today. When the sky turns dark, local restaurants, bars, dance clubs and downtown streets are full with people's laughs, jokes and humours. Restless cityThe next morning, an alarm wakes you up. After coffee, toast and a TV newsbreak and a couple of phones calls to the bank and the insurance company and stockbrokers, you are on your way to work with your new Pontiac Grand AM. At the lunch break. Grilled chicken, marinated with fries come across your mind, one more thing, salad and coffee, maybe Pepsi.
Seasonal alternation comes fast, moments of glory on maples and oaks with some aged dark brownish grayish barks slipped away from my mind. Yearly sea brushed natural stones on the shore standing tall and round from coast to coast are all over in this place. The prime time on newscast is always fast paced at clock speed. Slowly, the first crystal shiny snow flick drops to this Northern land. By the time Christmas comes, exhausted year and passionate people in the city and the country are all celebrating in their home beside their fireplace or at dinner parties. Nut Cracker and Tin Soldier are the best Christmas shows here.
On the other side of the earth, in the early morning northern China, traditional hot soymilk with a deep fried historical bread stick takes everyone's dinner table. At about the same time, Tiananmen Square and parks scattered throughout the city fill with people at all ages practicing Qi Kong and Chinese martial arts. After 8am, streets are full of bicycles and motor vehicles. The city gets busy. Beijing has lots of government departments, agencies, and universities and research institutes and companies from local and all over the world, as the capital city of China. Shopping centres, supermarkets and stores in the city open their doors at nine. They are the best places for visitors, housewives and some others. Sports centres and gyms in the morning are not very busy, but personnel are all looking at engaging for the afternoon. One quarter past ten, an old retired factory worker brings his tea cup, joining two others carrying their tea cups and Chinese chess set at the corner, heading to the park two blocks north. When the lunch time comes, Chinese fried chicken competing with Kentucky fried chicken beside McDonalds does not attract a lot of customers' attention, rather in beef noodle restaurant next to them, a line is formed. Well, McDonalds then, impatient young men and well dressed office women are arguing. Their older aged male manager say, let's have Korean BBQ beef. Of course, the check will be billed on corporate credit card. Time past three, busy phone lines still make receptionist headache transferring callers to managers, associates, agents and others. By 5pm, one associate still hasnt figured out how he will finish his own work, the manager requested him to work it out for the remaining of the day. He will get a good pay for his overtime, and if he did a good job, he would be better rated for the once a year yearly bonus. And his good work will be directly reported confidentially to the company headquarter in Hong Kong. That means the next time his manager went to a different department, his record would be shown on company president's name list. Well, 7% GDP growth in modern China every year does not come from nothing, and it does not lead to nothing.
Back to this place, passionate high school students carry their beautiful school bags to and from their educational institutes. They study almost the same as people elsewhere, one more important subject they study is the moral. School districts directors always have these in their mind. After school in the afternoon, people always stop by at the ice cream shop in the corner and buy a delicious ice cream. Math class is the top priority in high school education here. Well, engineers here earn a lot, and life isn't easy. Students here wish to become a doctor, a dentist, an engineer, a scientist or an artist since very young, and they work hard. Back to China, adults always ask young boys and girls, What do you want to be in your future?Answers are the same. I wanted to be a teacher, I said, I remembered. School teachers are considered the most godlycareer there. Beer, please, here I am when the waiter passes by. I was smiling at my choice while I was having my beer; it is a brave one to become king of monkeys.
Time goes by fast, arts, science, literature and engineering always take my mind. It has been quite a while since my last employment. Last one was short. Linear fit with a suitable least square value did make computer on my desktop running smoothly wild. By 2004, an advanced 64 bits AMD commercial personal computer enters into the market place, before that, IBM Super Blue and Chinese Galaxy competed with each other in their processing speed for building nuclear bombs. A couple years ago, Romanias Kasterof defeated IBM Deep Blue with a score 3:2 is still record breaking for high speed computing. It has been quite sometime since the invention of this device. Now almost everyone has obtained one at home here, and of course, the country is computerized and everything looks running at the computer speed. Time after 5pm, lines of traffic facing the golden shining sunset is still calm and quiet. Cities in this continent relaxed after NYSE, NASDAQ and TSE closed their last bid.
It only takes a while standing in a line to order a cheeseburger at McDonalds, maybe it takes a little shorter at Harveys. For a couple dollars more, you can get a good grilled marinated chicken meal. Students at campus can get a cheaper price on their meals. Coffee, Pepsi and Coke do not sell expensive too. 6pm news session specially talked about mad-cow disease, anyway, antibiotic bred beef does not make you a better appetite, even with a top bloody-Mary cocktail. People here buy cheap market price chicken at well-regulated supermarket. Life isn't easy.
The time for high school students going to colleges has come. Med-school, dental-school, law school, science, engineering and arts and education and social science are on their lists. They usually get what they want; lost ones go into their second or third choice of their applications. Well, education with specific religious or moral ingredients takes every students' and school districts directors mind. Top priority in this place is not easy too.
At the start of college students' academic life, well-disciplined seniors do not give their young student fellow an easier time. After a couple of lecture classes, student fellows always say, piece of cake. Like tackling problems do not need much time. Physics, chemistry, math, biology with some social science electives filled with one's busy schedule. They now want tutors in their spare time in order to get a good grade in their next quiz despite of only regular lecture hours. After fully completing their exam books, they went home, instead regretting about the mistakes they made, they move forward to the one and the next one exam. When the spring break comes, people skiing in the countryside mountains are most young college students. On Saturday night, downtown pubs and dance clubs filled with strange and familiar faces in the dark remind one to have a beer here sometimes again. Unlike those in China, professors here never rank their students; likewise, they do not announce one's grades in the classes. Still, straight A's never come easy. But Bs or Cs can make one graduate too.
Time has approached the final exam; students are busy at preparing themselves for the exam. The exams are not easy, most students can make it, and some of them, can perform very good and obtain good results. There are some students among student fellows cannot make to the end of the competition. They lost the race in the first round. Winning students went on for their college education, and spent stressful time over and over again until they made to the end of the race. Sometimes, they play PC games with an advanced ATI Rage-Pro video graphic card. Lost ones are not easy, they may want to start again after initiating some action on their own behalf starting a different program or repeating classes they failed. Of course, more caution will take place deliberately this time. They will stop saying things like piece of cakeand continue to be stressful. Some of these young men may decide directly to abandon what they have already made and go on for a different life after consulting with their parents, like joining the work force. Highly competitive environment is not built for everyone.
Graduation does not come easy. Alternation of seasons makes one think and feel matters differently. After the successful moment when the school principle congratulates one with a satisfied smile, he/she moves forward to dive into the pool of crowdedness. Some may want to continue their education towards higher, and then, they engage themselves into a new sound familiar racetrack or brand new ones. Life went on and on, so was the race.
When the street light turned red early evening, my cab stopped right at the front of the traffic, a song ...doctor and dentist, she drives all day...playing on FM radio got into my brain. It seems the best human genome can offer spreads wide here. I think the song was sung by a good singer of its kinds. Right, doctors, dentists, lawyers, scientists and engineers and some others are the best careers in this world. Racers are on the right track in this fast paced world. Modern computers have a glorious history of more than twenty years already, as the most frontier and advanced technology human ever invented.
After having a burger as my lunch, I went into a cafe, and ordered a cup of coffee. After sitting down, I figure what I eat do not relate to what I do, really, I don't know why. Don't know what others may think though. After I finish my coffee, I walked along on the street. Sunshine in the early afternoon in the spring here is warm and comfortable. Strangers with familiar English accent walk while talking to others on the downtown streets. Movie advertising on the main street caught me, the American movie Lost in Translationwould be the one on my must watch list. Life became less stressful after my last employment.
F-1 formula racetrack is still hot. Hot and steamy weather condition makes people sweat a lot. One round after the other, fully engaged racers driving their sponsors' race car are just in their best mood to challenge each other. Excited fans and audiences are weaving their hands and T-shirts and cheering for the excitement. Elsewhere, the swimming pools are full of people, so are the gyms and the weight rooms. After the NHL Hockey season, NBA, NFL and baseball courts are the new hot spots. Selected from students, sports professionals are engaging themselves for whatever competition they face in their career and their life. The best out of the best enters the championship, the world championship, Olympics and the winter Olympics. Champagne does not taste easy, but it surely tastes good.

教育一下资本主义吃人魔。。。。。。。。

xhu

美国学院出版社问我要了一个我的中文古诗集得简介，我写了一个英文的给他们了，约一百来字。

xhu

Introduction to Qing Liu Book:

Qing Liu, stands for Pure School, its book is a Chinese concurrent poetry collection emulates Chinese ancient poetry by the poet, Junsong Hu. Junsong Hu writes both in Chinese and in English, and he already has four English works published under his English pen name, Sha Yan. As the title suggests, Qing Liu Book carries the word Qing, meaning emulating from Qing Dynasty scholar works, and it carries the word school in Chinese, then it is exclusively the scholarly work. And the poetry works themselves have the scent from Song and Ming Dynasty, meaning Confucius School of idealized philosophy of two dynasties. The book also had pure and refreshing, else pine, snow and light scent. By writing these poetry works, Junsong Hu proclaims him as a Chinese scholar living in this contemporary world, in fact he did study Confucius, Buddhism and Taoism philosophy in his private time, and thus these studies enrich his living as a Chinese scholarly man. Junsong Hu found he writes better poetry works and works in general in Chinese than in English, and this exclusive book contains 86 Chinese ancient poetry works would be his first published work in Chinese, even though four works of his are found in English. By publishing the book, Junsong Hu established his stylish thinking and the status of the Confucius philosophy man.

xhu

搞这个还是能成功的，看来。。。。。。。。

xhu

In 2008, I have published my second work, Imminent Ferns by Sha Yan. It is an English poetry collection about life and spirit in general. Now I would like to set up a Shayan Hu Foundation, which is a non-profitable and charitable organization, for which I will soon go to register as a business organization and open a bank account for the Foundation. I mean, from now on, for every penny I made on selling "Imminent Ferns", I would like to put the money into the foundation. The purpose of the foundation is to help the Montreal local psychaitrical research that I will continiously donate money from the foundation account to Montreal hospitals. The foundation then would have a name, a name that will last throughout my life time, and by the means I suffer from the mental illness and continiously receive help from Quebec government. I purposedly would like to give and donate to the society throughout my lifetime, that would deliquently put the foundation under my pen name to the hospital front to battle mental illnesses. For those who suffer, I would like to help them. Please give, for ordering information of "Imminent Ferns" by Sha Yan, please visit publisher's website or search the title online.
Title: Imminent Ferns
Author: Sha Yan
ISBN:1-6081-3845-3
Publisher: Publish America
Web address: www.publishamerica.com
ps. soon I will set up a website for the foundation and have the link

foundation website:

shayanhufoundation.webs.com

xhu

Post by xhu;2820791
In 2008, I have published my second work, Imminent Ferns by Sha Yan. It is an English poetry collection about life and spirit in general. Now I would like to set up a Shayan Hu Foundation, which is a non-profitable and charitable organization, for which I will soon go to register as a business organization and open a bank account for the Foundation. I mean, from now on, for every penny I made on selling "Imminent Ferns", I would like to put the money into the foundation. The purpose of the foundation is to help the Montreal local psychaitrical research that I will continiously donate money from the foundation account to Montreal hospitals. The foundation then would have a name, a name that will last throughout my life time, and by the means I suffer from the mental illness and continiously receive help from Quebec government. I purposedly would like to give and donate to the society throughout my lifetime, that would deliquently put the foundation under my pen name to the hospital front to battle mental illnesses. For those who suffer, I would like to help them. Please give, for ordering information of "Imminent Ferns" by Sha Yan, please visit publisher's website or search the title online.
Title: Imminent Ferns
Author: Sha Yan
ISBN:1-6081-3845-3
Publisher: Publish America
Web address: www.publishamerica.com
ps. soon I will set up a website for the foundation and have the link

foundation website:

shayanhufoundation.webs.com

我这会可是对蒙特利尔患精神病的人尽心了，又是网站又捐书的。。。。。。。。拿政府的也不白拿。。。。。。。。

xhu

My second poetry collection, "China Tower" is published by LuLu.com. I did more editing work for the book and did a different cover. For ordering through the publisher's website, you can enjoy a 5% discount on site, and there is an e-book download on the site, also you can have a 5% discount. Please see below for the ordering information,

http://www.lulu.com/product/paperback/china-tower/15165884